20th birtday!

its my 20th birthday!5th march 2012,yes,dats da date.im proud of myself for being 20!yes,something tremendous happened.i changed in order of age increasing.previous birthdays,i was hoping for my parents to give me presents.that will make me happy.for this year,its different.im matured enough to tell them that i dont need presents from them.instead,im the one who thanked them because without them i wont live in ths world.am i right?im totally right.they gave me life,they gave me everything.and now its payback time.i'll give them my love and my success.i love u mama and abah.i love u so much.thanks for everything.with love.:D

its been 3 years,2 months and 27 days since u left me.

hey2,wtf.hello love story.its been a while since i last talked about my love story.to be specific my past love story.i love her,used to love her act.she seems so perfect and so precious after she left me.i was blind.i dont know how to translate this idiom,but its just like 'nasi jadi bubur'.now she's gone with other guy.n one thing for sure,if that guy make her cry,i'll dig a grave for him and wont mourne for his death.i dont know how i feel right now.im just lost for a while.yeah,i dont love her anymore.but forgetting her seems impossible.forgetting someone that u used to love is like remembering someone u've never met.yes,thats the word.i lied her,i cheated her,served me right she dump me.and this song is just for her,always for her.

credited to : tengku syaza amalina binti tengku azam

title : pesanan ringkas

bila sebut akan namamu,
ku teringat akan sesuatu,
kisah tentang kau dan aku,
ketika kasih bermadu.

kotak fikiranku terganggu,
memikirkan kesalahanku,
berduaan dengan si dia,
di depan orang tercinta.

kau sukakan aku yg dulu,
sentiasa bersama denganmu,
bermesraan di awan biru,
sambil menyanyikan lagu.

gitar ini menjadi saksi,
betapanya aku sesali,
ku harap engkau memahami,
sepi tanpamu disisi.

yeah,thats the song.i composed,i played,n ising it for her.but it will remain as a memory for me.a sweet memory.u r the best thing that ever happened in my life.we are not together for 3 years already,yet i still cant find someone.at the same time,u r happy out there with someone.dis is truely known as karma.hahahahahahaha.served me right.god bless u.if im going to tell about how i feel to her,its going to be blank spaces because im speechles.how i hope that she will read this.yet,i know she wont.act,im strong enough to remain breathing after three rough years,bcause some of unlucky people who failed in love tend to commit suicide.hahahahahahaha.evil laugh.i dont know what to say actually.i dont know what to write,what to be used to update my blog,till i watched nowadays movie trend is all about love.people love to talk about love.fuck them.u guys know nothing about love asshole.hahahahahahahaha.fuck yourself.till then,i hope that this article shows how strong i am to keep myself away from love stuff.salam.:)

hOw A mOTher lOve Her cHildRen

mom.someone tht gv birth to us.some people call dis person mom,ibu,bonda,umi,but i prefer to call her mama.she is my bestest friend of all.she gv me love.she gv me food,a home,money,anythg that i wished.evnthough she need 2 get through a lot of troubles or even putting herself in inconvenience state,she will do it.i just wonder,about those crime cases out there,killing their mom,torturing their mom.guys,r u being ungrateful?she ws d one dt show u da world.she carried u 9 months in her womb.how could u do that.treat her like a 'mother' u asshole.yet,i used to b a childish person,yelling at my mom,scolding my mom.but i wont do those things now.she is getting older!one day,i will miss her a lot and wish dt i can bring her to a prosperous life in d heaven.i love u mom,more than i love myself.yes,while im writing dis,im crying.why?bcause i love my mom so much.crying for ur beloved one is not a sin,it is smthg that u should be grateful.when dat day come,da day dat i'll never ever see her again on dis world,dat will b my precious moment of life.because i knw,u r a good Allah's slave,n i'll pray to god to forgive all ur sins and put u in heaven.i love u mom.seriously.ADIK SAYANG MAMA.credited to d only,WAN ZARINAH BINTI ISMAIL.how much i love u,i know u love me more.thanks a bunch mom.:)

bLaCkBeRrY kU sAyAnG

i dont know how i feel right now.wtf is wrg wit my bb.asyik rosak je kau.haritu button camera,ni skrin.adoi,aku xde duitla nk hntr kau pg repair. kat mobile clinic.i just hope dat miracle will bring u to life.aku syg kau,kau byk cntribute untk aku.waaaa,feel like crying.without my bb im no one.hrp2 pg esok aku bngun,tgk kau dh ok ye bb.plz.plz.kau x ok,aku jual kau.haaa,aku lacurkan kau jd gro.nk?xnk kn.sihatlah kau sebelum kau disihtkn.gdnight bb.get well soon.=)

life of a malysian as an englishman

after finished my study in tesl foundation,i pursued in bachelor of english.so damn hard.i hav 4 years here,and plan to continue with my master.life is bitch.suck.bare in my mind that study is a part of life.we study everyday,conciously and unconciously.yeah!life as a student is sure tough dude.we take part in life developing process.getting into love,politic,social issues,omg.i cant believe dat how complicated dis life is.however,ill try my best to fill my life with colours.we r born to die.yes,dats it.we will die.n make sure we enjoy our sorrow life b4 the time comes.smile.:)

just around da corner

now,im in the foundation of tesl at uitm..weeks later,im done wit da foundation stuff..3 weeks full of classes,one study week without class n last but not least final exam..oh god,im surely will die if i stay dis way..god,help me..change me..i wnt 2 be anthr prson..not a person,but i wnt to be an ant..as hardworking as an ant..oh god,how ungrateful i am!im so sorry god..im not a good person..i live on ur earth but i dont assemble u as my lord..i always feel lazy 2 perform my prayers,2 pray to u,but in desperate situations i always raise my hands n ask 4 ur help..bad POKWE!come on dude,change..turn over a new leaf..im so sorry god..ill change myself,promise..~